On A Sad Note...

As my readers know, I always post my latest weight loss almost from the instant I leave the doctor’s office.  My most recent visit was Thursday, May 17th or FIVE days ago.  The reason for this madness you ask?  I GAINED FOUR pounds!!!  Yes, I said it and it is true.  Sadly, my loss of control continued through yet another doctor’s visit.  This, even though I had all of you, my friends edging me on for better behavior and encouraging me with every positive word possible, the gain is true.  

The RN who saw me didn't really scold me, however her words were just as piercing and I cried.  I don't like admitting this on a public blog, however, all of you should know me as a true person and not stating this on my blog would make me a liar.  

In the end, the RN suggested I make appointments with all the staff available to my disposal at the Clinic.  This would include the Nutritionist, and most importantly the Psychologist.  The RN and I both think that this emotional eating needs to be addressed.  She feels I didn't go through all of this just to fail now.  The RN also asked if I was already happy with the weight I have lost to date.  I answered a half yes; however, that being said, even though I am happy, gaining four pounds is not the way to show it.  

Yesterday, one of my family members made a comment on my weight loss progress and when I admitted the gain, I told them I hadn't blogged about it.  One of my family insisted that blogging about it would be part of the healing process and it is true.  I am already feeling better.  

Today, I will be driving to Marina del Rey for my appointment with the psychologist.  Hopefully, we will get to the bottom of this issue and I'll get back on track.  Somehow however, it won’t take just one visit… 

On a good note... the RN refilled my Lap Band port.  It feels a lot different than other visits in that I am full much faster than before.  I am not sure what she did different, however, it is very noticeable to me.  With this, I wish you all a blessed day.  Enjoy its beauty!  

	Weight and Measurements Chart
		Immediate Goal:  195
		Ultimate Goal:  150
Date	Weight	Bust	Waist	Hips	Thigh	BMI
Pre-Surgery	295	53	48	59	25
6/1/2011	290	53	48	59	--	49.9
6/15/2011	277	52	48.5	61.5	--	47.5
7/21/2011	268.5	51	46	58.5	24.5	46.1
9/1/2011	257.5	49	46	56	25	44.2
10/13/2011	254	47.5	45	53	23	43.6
11/22/2011	242.3	48	44	52	23.5	41.6
1/11/2012	238.3	48	43	51	24	40.9
2/23/2012	233.5	46.5	43	50	24	40.1
4/5/2012	229.9	46.5	42	48.5	24.5	39.4
5/17/2012	233	47	41	49	25	40
Difference from last visit to this visit	-3.1	-0.5	1	-0.5	-0.5
Total Pounds:	62	6	7	10	0
Total Inches:	23